Coming Home

You know last year I was struggling greatly with my purpose, and my place in life, even with where I wanted to live. I was listening to "Running On Empty" by Jackson Brown at full blast day and night in my car to wherever I had to go each day. It spoke to me...especially the two stanzas

" ...Everyone I know, everywhere I go
people need some reason to believe.
I don't know about anyone but me
If it takes all night, that'll be all right,
if I can get you to smile before I leave.

Looking out at the road rushing under my wheels
I don't know how to tell you all
Just how crazy this life feels
I look around for the friends that I used to turn to
to pull me through
Looking into their eyes I see them running too."

It was some time this spring when I finally felt the peace about living out here. When I finally appreciated being in this beautiful place. Recognizing some of the amazing and interesting people I have befriended (present company included) here and realizing that I will be OK if I live here the rest of my life or not. I no longer have that pining away sadness. Or at least I do not dwell on it to the point of disturbing my happiness out here.

I guess I am meant to be here now. I feel I am helping a lot of people feel better about themselves, or just feel better physically; my friends and my clients. I am finding people and circumstances that fulfill me too. Sometimes they are one and the same.

My wish for the people I come in contact with is that they too find this peace. It is a lot easier to live a happy existence.